Oh man, earlier this week the enemy tried to take me down. Not just in a little way, nope, this constituted over three hours of sobbing, inconsiderate international phone calls (sorry for the 3 am wakeup dad…), and a whole lot of, “Jesus what are you doing?” Isn’t it so funny how easily the enemy can get in without us even knowing? He will steal our identities, what we believe, how we feel, and most of all our faith and joy-if we let him.
Long story short? I totally gave into the enemy thinking it was Jesus… I didn’t trust myself and I didn’t trust God and his word. I was so emotional and wrecked over thinking that I was confusing the call God has placed on my life. I was getting so caught up in trying to plan my future and wanting crystal clear assurance from Jesus, but that’s not what he asks of us. He asks us to trust him and leap, and be confident that he’ll catch us no matter where we land.
I thought that I wasn’t being called to live and work in Africa. I thought that there was no place for me here, I believed the enemy when he whispered to me that I didn’t fit in. He made me believe that grace is meant to be held onto rather than given freely and abundantly. He made me believe that I was unlikable and that all the lies he whispered were really truth.
But that’s not who the Lord says we are. He say’s we’re his.
And he chose us to be his very own, joining us to himself even before he laid the foundation of the universe! Because of his great love, he ordained us, so that we would be seen as holy in his eyes with an unstained innocence. For it was always in his perfect plan to adopt us as his delightful children, through our union with Jesus, the Anointed One, so that his tremendous love that cascades over us would glorify his grace-for the same love he has for his Beloved One, Jesus, he has for us. And this unfolding plan brings him great pleasure!” (Ephesians 1:4-6 TPT)
That is truth.
I feel like here in Uganda I am so much more aware of the enemy’s attacks than I am in the U.S. I’m not sure if it’s that they’re more overt here, or if i’m being more intentional about recognizing the enemy for who he is. But, I know that here I am surrounded by God fearing women who constantly remind me of his truth and remind me that the enemy is very real but that his words are not.
We are the truth that Jesus speaks over us, and even when the enemy tries to steal that identity I will trust the word of Jesus.