Lately I’ve had this anticipation. Anticipation of blissful, hard, cling-to-Jesus days. Days filled with humbled learning, quiet serving, And simply soaking in the fleeting precious moments that make up our memories.
Today I’m grateful and I’m faithful. I’ve had a lot of anticipatory anxiety lately around my summer in Uganda. Earlier this week I prayed very specifically to God, just asking for and praising the overwhelming peace of the soul that only he can give. Constant worries were running through my head while I started doubting if I was actually following the Lord.
But he whispers in my ear, “sweet girl of mine, come into the comfort of my arms and find your assurance there. Seek me. Ask me.” And then I flipped open my bible today to a random psalm and saw this-
“I stand silently to listen for the one I love, waiting as long as it takes for the Lord to rescue me. For God alone has become my savior. He alone is my safe place; his wrap-around presence always protects me. For he is my champion defender; there’s no risk of failure with God. So why would I let worry paralyze me, even when my troubles around me multiply?” Psalms 62:1-2 TPT
In these moments of anticipation I pray I can soak in the fleeting and changing feelings that come and appreciate them all; the excited, the nervous, the scared, the overjoyed, the everything. Life is just moments that we need to be present and appreciative in a world that wants our attention everywhere but where it really should be.
I’m so guilty of this, and I pray that my attention can be focused on those around me, especially when anxiety tries to steal the spotlight.
But for now, I’m sitting in endless gratitude for my savior for granting me that peace that knows no understanding.
“So I’m thanking you with all my heart, with gratitude for all you’ve done. I will do everything I’ve promised you, Lord.” Psalms 56:12 TPT
Goodbye for now friends.