Life has been really stressful lately. I’ve basically just been trying to keep my head above the water in all areas of my life. I overcommit myself and then just hope for the best, picturing some idealized version of life that is unattainable, only to get frustrated with myself when life doesn’t look exactly like that. There is so much that I desire to do and to be and I want to do it all right now, which just isn’t possible. So life get’s stressful and some days it all can just be too much. And lately, life has been simply too much of too much. It was seeming like the long hard days had no end in sight, I was running on fumes and constantly on the edge of a “breakdown”, and just so ready for a break from my life. But the Lord is sweet and he is so obviously growing me during this time of overcommitment and obligations.
I took the weekend to rest and restore. I had planned to do nothing because this coming week is all kinds of hectic and obligation filled, but ended up having the sweetest day with my roommate and boyfriend up in the mountains at an apple orchard and pumpkin patch. We drove two hours from Los Angeles in search of cooler weather and changing leaves for a fall filled day and it absolutely did not disappoint.
I didn’t think it would be restful to go pick apples and pumpkins, but getting away from LA and from the stress of housework and schoolwork and other responsibilities was so nice. My poor boyfriend was stuck in the car with my roommate and I for hours while we blasted old Disney channel music (Jonas Brothers anyone?! Hannah Montana & High School Musical also may have made an appearance!). He was such a trooper, even taking photos of us and with me, which are probably two of his least favorite things (what a guy), and we joked all day about who was really third wheeling.
This day was such a reminder that the Lord gives us little gifts all the time, we just have to remember to look for them. How many other days and moments were so sweet that I was just not grateful enough to realize and thank him for? Getting to spend this time with two of my favorite people was something I absolutely loved. My boyfriend David and I are long distance, and if we’re lucky we get to see each other for one day every week. It was so nice to have this time with him getting to know the people in my life i’m closest to and to be able to take this day trip with him. He also was amazing and drove up early and surprised me by waking me up with coffee. Sweet moments all around. He’s brought so many sweet moments into my life.
I’m so lucky to have such a good roommate and friend in Christina. She keeps me accountable, is hilarious, and loves the Jonas Brothers, something I recently found out! She introduces me to all the good music and always has the best ideas, like this little trip to go to the apple orchard!
The days aren’t always easy and stress free, but there are always sweet moments, most often from the sweet people the Lord has blessed us with. This day was so clearly a way God was trying to show he’s here and is working amidst the hard, rocky, chaos of life.
There are so many ways the Lord has been showing up and bringing sweetness into my life, I just haven’t had my eyes fixed the right way, I haven’t had gratitude in the season of stress, and that’s on me. I’m a person who loves to dwell in bad moods and feels very comfortable in melancholy and stress, i’m an enneagram four for all of you guys who know the enneagram, and I think that I tend to search for what’s missing over celebrating what is already there.
So in honor of celebrating what’s there here is some sweet moments of life lately:
-Unexpected grades: I was sure I failed a couple of my gajillion and one midterms and essays and this week I got them back with some very happy grades
-I won my first game of Ruzzle: I’m obsessed with this word game app called Ruzzle and i’m terrible at it. I have played dozens of times and have just now only won once, i’ll take it
-GRE: A better/sooner date opened up and now I have time to take it twice before I start applying to graduate school
-We had a such fun and super successful young life club this week with about 13 new people who had never been which makes my heart the happiest! I love watching these kids learn about who God his and just how loved they are by him. If you’ve never been to a young life club or young life camp you are missing out, young life is without a doubt one of the biggest blessings in my life
-Ice cream/Pressed freezes with Christina and a mentor, such great time to relax, and take a break
Grateful to have had these couple of days as a reminder of the Lord’s sweet blessings